Random Days on the Road
Saturday, March 13, 2004
The Day of Reckoning
There has been so much going on - I know I'm going to use this forum to get out how I am feeling. There's no one else to talk to.
Thursday - went to lunch with the CEO - I told her - since she announced she wanted a separation a week ago, all I want is a straight answer. What are you doing with the "boyfriend"? She sat there for 15 minutes, started crying and said nothing. Apparently she went to him after lunch, told him that I would feel better if I knew the truth. She let him tell me face-to-face instead of her.
The "boyfriend" asked me to dinner. I just said " What's up with you and the CEO?" He admitted a "physical relationship" that ended about thirty days earlier. They "mutually" decided to end the physical part. He asked her not to say anything to me due to his fear of me calling up his wife. He said it was one of the hardest things he had to do. So the boyfriend (no quotes anymore - he confirmed it) said "Are you going to pop me one in the ass?" I said "No - your issue is not with me. Your issue is with you, your God, and your wife."
She should have told me - She should have told me. The fact that her loyalties are with him and not with the man that she promised to "love, honor, cherish, blah blah blah" just killed me then and still does.
Friday - she calls me at 5 am. "I have been having an affair with the boyfriend. But you shouldn't say bad things about me." Too bad.
I'm torn and wounded. Do I love her? Is she worth it?
