Random Days on the Road
Saturday, July 31, 2004
I got it
After a rough day in class - more for me because it was tough sitting with the CEO all day - luckily we never got picked to sit together in a team.
Calls back and forth to the evaluator. Had to get the premarital portion of the company accounted for in terms of value. CEO saw I was playing with the numbers somehow, called her lawyer, who called the valuator, who called me and said - you have spies in your office. Oh boy.
CEO and I started talking on the phone while she was on her way to Newark (on the plane) - she called at 10 pm (Colorado time) and we talked for about 2 hours. We made progress (although mostly I kept her awake on her drive). She will see an alcohol counselor for an evaluation and I will remove the alcohol clause if they say she is OK.
We then started talking about our marriage and why we wouldn't stay with each other. But, at the end of it, I got it. There were things that we had done to each other from the beginning - I probably did a lot. I'm going to defend myself - but I acknowledge it as such. I love women and I love getting attention from them. That has been ok when single - and great for my ego, but not appropriate for being married. There were things I was upset about - her shopping, her life having to be in her order - things that family and friends have said. I haven't always wanted to be married to her, but I always loved her.
I am happier and at peace now. Underneath it all, I do love her. I know she loves me. I always have that song in my head. "There ain't no good guys, there ain't no bad guys. There's just you and me and we just disagree."
